My number one reason/excuse for not blogging in the past two months:

No WiFi at the casa….yet.

Tonight I sit at a Starbucks at Hollywood & Highland using their free Wifi, freezing my fingertips off and of course…JOB SEARCHING.

And let me tell you. IT. IS. THE. PITS. (and not pill poppin Brad n Angelina with two “t”s)

Applications…craiglist postings…emails…resume updating.

just all the work that people like me who loathe the search need our own live-in intern (no pay of course cuz we are the ones looking for the income, duh!) to process.

I want to make a dent in the world. somehow. 

Just want to feel like Ive made an impact on others’ lives.  a positive one that is. 

Like Oprah. She rules the world. And its AWESOME! Oprah for President. 

I feel so disconnected from myself. and I dont know how to get back to me. 

Real life trying to make ends meat, working a lot and not making enough has caused me to constantly become stressed out. emotional. and out of touch.

I’m trying to change my outlook on things. and chill out a little bit again.

But I dont even know where to start. 

I just feel like theres never enough time to do anything and that we dont have a lot of time. 

So now I’m here on crunch mode with $30 to my name and bills still remain unpaid.

It sounds so easy when people say…get another job…but then I become overwhelmed on craigslist and just end up exiting out of the search window because nothing seems to fit “me”. 

I just need a sign!!! Opportunity is knocking i just dont know what door or window its at in my Alice in Wonderland house.

constantly searching. never arriving.

I NEED A SIGN! will it ever end?! 

random tangent in midst of random tangent blogging:

crazy looking girl just walked by me with her extensions practically falling out of her hair and a more “Wal-Mart” spin on an Avril Lavigne skater look circa 2000.

i just dont understand how people leave the house these days. do you have a mirror?

“what story are you trying to tell? what are you giving me exactly?”

ok enough of the tangents. i’m cold. hungry. gotta pee. and good ole craigslist is calling. because the bank just sent me an email yelling at me how much of a broke loser i am tonight. ta ta for now.

well..enough of this random tangent writing

i joined a dating website.

life is too busy and everyone’s viral 24/7 these days.

what the hell.

nothing lost.

;)